It really shows how divided many Aspies are between being true to (what we see as) ourselves and being better accepted and liked by others. Many of us struggle to answer "Who am I?"
Incidentally, some minorities, such as many blacks and Hispanics in the U.S., grapple with some of these issues too.
Aspies, please read this and better understand some of your fellow Aspies. NTs, please read this and better understand how Aspies may be at war within ourselves.